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27 March 2010

As for our future..

We must make some planning..

Plan to earn more money..

Plan to earn more knowledge..

Now surely i have to work hard to get increment..

see how much they can give me..

i also will search for new jobs..

to get greater salary..

after finish my task and get the reward..

I will throw the resignation letter to the company..

and replace with a new company..

this is my work..

now is the study..

i find a part time course to study..

design..

web design..

graphic design.

i feel that accounts is not my permanent role..

i feel like there are full of creative power inside my body..

they are waiting to boom out..

hehe..

The most important thing sure is my baby...

got my baby acc me..

nothing impossible in my life..

got baby support me..

i can solve any problem...

i love u baby

LIfe~~

20 Mar 2010

That is a 1st time baby stay at my house..

I feel very warm..

Like a family..

juz we 2..

But now still not the time we enjoy..

we must try our best to work hard..

for our future..

we are juz 21..

still got much much more time to live together..

so i got a plan..

Baby juz study hard to finish your ACCA..

then i go take a design course..

we growth on diff way..

at last we combine our profession..

then we can own the world..

hahaha

we can give a good life to our family..

this is the important..

so baby must study hard o..

and i will too..

lets work hard together..

love baby..

my mood and my thinking and yet maybe is to my mum too

I dunno why in this moment I really hope I can write my mood and my mind down because I realise in my life I really need to write down to remind myself and yet maybe hope my mum can read this and understand my feeling if one day I am pass away earlier than my mum. I hope bb can pass this to let my mum read this.

To my mum,

In my heart, I always thinking is it really I am wrong why I can't live with you just for the short moment in my life. I really hope I can do the best in your heart and be a best daughter ever in this world and make other jealous because you are so lucky to have a daughter like me. But I dun think I can do this forever until I am no longer have chance to stay with you.

I really cried not because you tell bad about my bf but I am so hurt because forever you dun understand what I am thinking and what I wish to be in your heart. I am tired to keep making myself diff from what you thinking.

I think I always worsen the situation until I know that if I am not in this world or not ever appear in your life you may stay happier rather I am here.

I always I am the best among your other son or daughter but I think I am wrong. I am so sorry for borning always make you so unhappy and regret. From the day I born, I am no chance to take care by you and I think our relation are not that good starting from this reason. Maybe I am always over confident that everything is possible if I keep hardwork to make it everything change but I am wrong. the fade are not there to make us stay together and however what I done is just go back to the starting point.

Anyway, whatever you think who am I or what you think about me, in my heart you are forever my mum that is fact and no one can change it. Even how you dislike me it also doesn't change my mind to how I treat you. I may already decided by god to repay you. What I can do and plan to do is just wait the time I success and give you whatever you want even you only want my money or doesn't want to appear in your life forever. I hope I am done this before you read this because it prove that my dream already comes true and I already done what I want to do.

You no need to feel sad or regret because you do not do wrong in any sense and you are right I am wrong I not suppose to shout or quarrel with you because I have no this power to do this. right will always at yours. Sorry and thanks for making me a success person in my life.

bb I know one day my mum will understand you and know that you are so good and forever is the best. I really feel so regret whatever I am done to my mum. I really stuck I am not as clever as what my dad think because I can't solve and decide my own decision. I am a failure. only bb now stand and accompany me to pass every moment of my hardest life.

Thanks and I hope I will get mature more day by day. Love bb...muakz....

缺点 | 优点

每一个情侣在一起难免会有不适合的时候。。
没有一个人是完美的。。
所以我们不能因为对方的不好而埋怨。。

baby的优点 --

自然。。聪明。。勤力。。对bb很好。。很照顾。。

baby的缺点 --

喜欢发脾气。。乱想。。

我发觉我跟baby的成熟的地方不同。。
baby成熟在平时一些琐碎的事情上。。
相反的对我们的未来就不成熟。。
这个我就比较成熟。。
baby 要会想。。
不能因为时常要粘在一起。。
就耽误了我们赚钱的时间。。
在一起我也想。。
可是赚钱和存钱也很重要。。
我叫你回来作part time。。
其实是想说一起做工的话。。
baby 就会很专心读书。。
不用一直想要见面而不读书。。
所以baby不能辜负我的期望哦。。
我们都要为我们的未来而努力。。
这样我们才会有幸福的未来。。

爱你。。

132.17

Baby you know what number is this??

you know each number represent of what??

hehe..

I tell you now..

the 17 is....

the weeks we together..

now you know the 132 is what edi lor..

right??

that is the days we together..

we edi together for 17 weeks..

we stil got 35 weeks to reach 1 year..

haha..

and we together edi 132 days..

i forget to celebrate our 100 days ler..

nvm we celebrate when the 200 days come..

you know why i gonna write thi blog??

that is becoz today is wednesday..

i remember our 1st day in a sudden..

haha..

the 1st day we go pasar malam..

hehe..

you c i got miss you de lor..

still wan blame me..

ok la..

the purpose for this blog is juz these..

i love you lou po..

muax..

了解

所有一切都沒有人錯。。

兩個不同家庭的人在一起本來就應該面對的問題。。

我很慶幸我家庭沒有令我難做的事情發生。。

可是你不同。。

很難怪你會培養成這樣的脾氣。。

是我不會體諒你。。

造成很多事情的發生。。

不要想那麼多消極的東西。。

我不應許你自己一個跑出去。。

至少也要有人陪。。

你想看如果我一個人不出聲跑掉你會怎樣。。

相同的。。

你要我擔心死麼。。

事情很快就會過去。。

不要亂想。。

PLZ..

一切都是我的错

是我固执，如果我时常都早回的话，那就不会因为我时常不想回家而让我妈妈去和你说昨天那番话，那你就不用这样辛苦去面对你从来都没遇见过的母亲的对待。
对不起因为我的出现造成你的生活如此的烦恼，或许如果我们从开始都没开始过一切都不会连累你。
如果不是因为我把我妈妈对我的态度告诉你，你也不会对我妈妈这样反感，也不会有昨天的发生。
一切都是我不好，就算你选择抛弃我就像我阿嫂一样，我都不会怪谁，因为这一切都不会是谁的错，错就错在我一家人都要给我妈妈赔罪，就像我爸我哥现在就算是我的时候。
或许我有被我妈遗传脾气不好，不会体谅人，不适合当人家的妻子。无论如何，我已经做好所有的心理准备去面对失去我妈和你，就像失去宝贝一样，反正都不是没有尝试过。
或许我的命运就是应该孤独伶仃不该那么幸福美满，我不敢再去幻想我的未来，因为我不想希望越大失望也越大。
你喜欢怎么样怎么对我还是我妈我已经不想去理会了。。。结果是愉或悲只要你快乐就可以了。。我不想再那么自私把自己的悲哀转移到你身上。。不想再欠你任何东西了。。。我的出现使你与我妈我家人都如此的伤心，一切都是我不好。。